First Anniversary

It was exactly last year at this moment, that you rang and woke me up from my sleep. But I wasnt mentally prepared that this would be the last call from you.

You sounded very weak over the phone.. I was very panic and yet helpless. There were so many things I have yet to share with you. There were so many things I wished I could do, but I couldnt. I wished I could fly over immediately to New York to be with you. I wished you could be Mrs Ng. I wished and I wished... that miracles happened.

You asked me not to cry, because that would make you feel very sad. But I couldnt... but to weep. Didnt you know that when you first fell sick, I told myself be your pillar and be strong. We shared many laughters..but this was the first time we were crying together. The pain was unbearable.

You asked me if you could keep the ring with you.. and I said yes. It was given to you for so long, and was your source of strength. It was yours forever. And the last word from you was .."Baby, I love you..." and our call ended.

Shortly, you passed away in your sleep....

Though you had left me, you have changed my life. I will be a better man for you. You're always on my mind.

I love you too, Ellie.
Cheng Hwa

The special day of us

Hi Ellie,

Had you still been around.. today would have been our 1st year wedding anniversary.

Ever since we decided on this day for wedding, I was looking forward to this special day.

You had been the wedding planner for your cousins, and finally you had a chance to plan for your own wedding. You had been dreaming in having your perfect wedding since young. It was so closed and yet so far for your dream to come true.

First, you had spent more than US$30k on your wedding gown. I was speechless when you told that to me. I wish I have the chance to see you in the beautiful wedding gown. You would be the most gorgeous lady I would ever meet.

And to cater for all your ever growing VIP list, you had also booked for our wedding dinner at Grand Hyatt, a total of 60 tables. I wonder if I would get so stressed out on that night itself.

While you were planning for your wedding dinner, I was planning our honeymoon. I wanted a 3 months europe tour, but you said you cant take such a long leave.. and in the end, we settled for a 2 months tour. You were so greedy, and wanted to visit a total of more than 10 euro cities. It was a very tough job as we would be going on a free and easy package.

Love,
Cheng Hwa
On the 1st wedding anniversary of ours.

Happy 32th Birthday!

To my dearest Ellie,

This is your first birthday since you have left me. I still remember what you said to me last year.. it's like yesterday once more.

Today, there's nothing I could give you, except mourning quietly for you. I walked from my office to the place at East Coast Park where you would usually sit when you were upset. The walk was long.. but every step I made, I was thinking of you.

Looking at the sea, I want to sing you the song you always sing for me.

The Moon Reflects My Heart by Theresa Teng
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You wonder me how deeply do I love you

How much do I love you
My feeling is genuine
My love is true
The moon reflects my heart

You ask me how deeply do I love you
How much do I love you
My feeling is unmoved
My feeling is unchanged
The moon reflects my heart

So gently the kiss was
That has touched my heart
So deeply the affection was
That made me long for you till now

You ask me how deeply do I love you
How much do I love you
Consider this
And look above
The moon reflects my heart

月亮代表我的心, 邓丽君
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你问我爱你有多深?
我爱你有几分?
我的情也真,
我的爱也真,
月亮代表我的心.
你问我爱你有多深,
我爱你有几分?
我的情不移,
我的爱不变,
月亮代表我的心.
轻轻的一个吻,
已经打动我的心,
深深的一段情,
叫我思念到如今.
你问我爱你有多深,
我爱你有几分?
你去想一想,
你去看一看,
月亮代表我的心

Always On My Mind,
Cheng Hwa
12 June 2008
10:10pm