First Anniversary

It was exactly last year at this moment, that you rang and woke me up from my sleep. But I wasnt mentally prepared that this would be the last call from you.

You sounded very weak over the phone.. I was very panic and yet helpless. There were so many things I have yet to share with you. There were so many things I wished I could do, but I couldnt. I wished I could fly over immediately to New York to be with you. I wished you could be Mrs Ng. I wished and I wished... that miracles happened.

You asked me not to cry, because that would make you feel very sad. But I couldnt... but to weep. Didnt you know that when you first fell sick, I told myself be your pillar and be strong. We shared many laughters..but this was the first time we were crying together. The pain was unbearable.

You asked me if you could keep the ring with you.. and I said yes. It was given to you for so long, and was your source of strength. It was yours forever. And the last word from you was .."Baby, I love you..." and our call ended.

Shortly, you passed away in your sleep....

Though you had left me, you have changed my life. I will be a better man for you. You're always on my mind.

I love you too, Ellie.
Cheng Hwa